what to feel

As of late I have been complaining that I just go through the motions of life not actually living.

This is one of my few fears in life.

A friend of mine asked me recently to stop feeling.
I can't. I won't. It's not part of who I am. It's defiantly not who I want to be.

Being empathic is key to my existence.

It's how I help to facilitate healing in others. I feel their pain, I feel their sorrow, their happiness and success. I feel their silent prayers to the beyond.
I shed my tears to cleanse their soul.

I feel so much, I rarely feel my self.

When I stand behind a camera I am not thinking, I feel. Nothing else matters, it's about knowing when to click the shutter.
That freeze frame in time.
To capture TIME.
It is one of the few ways we can physically hold time in our hands.
To revisit a passing moment.
To invoke the energy of that 1/60 of a second.

I would not wish it another way.

I seek to find the balance.