Sunday, October 21, 2007

New Souls

I recently had a talk with a good friend about New souls.
This beautiful, refreshing light brought into this world.
Free.
Pure.
Untainted by trials of past reincarnations.

Now, my question is, are these people truely new souls, or are they the ones who have learned to process.
Ground.

Why can we not be happy for those who have found this inner stillness?

Do we return to this life with a bitterness towards those that have learned, and are on to other lessons?
Because we cant pay our price?
Because we cant sacrifice?
Because we cant learn to let go and move on?

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

At the base of human insecurity is ultimately Acceptance

To find God.
To be in the Zone.
To be one with the Earth.

Whatever it is that each of us calls it.

Some of us find it in religion.
Some find it in the music we play.
Some seek it out in the waves we surf.

We are all searching for the chance to be at peace.

To be in the present.
To be at one.
To just BE.

For those searching for the deeper meanings, the whys and hows, it comes at a cost,
One must give up everything

This the most difficult thing we as western society face, because of the way we have been socialized.
We were never taught in school to find ourselves.
To search for the things in life that money can't buy.

When and if each of us arrive at this point in life, it is a solo journey.
A lifelong path, full of struggles, disappointments but most importantly achievements.
It is not for the faint of heart.
When we stumble we must be able to pick ourselves back up and continue on. Or all will be lost.

"My success is measured by my willingness to keep on trying" - Anonymous

I have been told that we are given new tests with every new moon.
We are given 30 days.
If we do not love and process our emotions then we carry them on to the next cycle. And by not learning from our experiences, we become stunted in our personal growth.
STUCK.
In turn we fall behind with our life path because we are stuck trying to learn a lesson.

Or
in some cases we are avoiding the test.
Because to actually stop and feel is far too 'painful'. To let go and be vulnerable, even with ourselves, is such a foreign concept that we manifest a cancerous fear within ourselves.
We run away from ourselves and our emotions on a daily bases.
And we repeat it, over and over and over again.
REPETITION.
Of the same low vibrations, creating a disease within ourselves.

Some of us will live an entire lifetime repeating our mistakes. Sadley, some will we even die not having learned anything.

Only to return to do it all over again.

If only Life was like the airport... we would all have to check our baggage before boarding the plane.

Monday, October 15, 2007

Aware in the Now

Solace found in a perfect stranger

together they walked down the dark desolate path
holding hands

her attempt to undo the malice
she unwittingly bestowed upon his delicate soul

a gift of complacency, one he never knew existed
kindled a smile
more explosive than any sky on the 4th of July

he fused their two souls for a single instant
the love was electrifying

an infinite energy linked between two hearts

His gift was her reason breathe.

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Life

Welcome to the game.

Are you ready to play?

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

Too Many Questions

Silence
for the first time today

Just Her

Yellow bong water
that comforting flame

a sweet cloud
devouring her fragile strength

Her escape...
Escape from where? From what?
Or who...

She contemplates those words

Reflecting on her life

Those terrifying words
haunt her insecurities once more

Or is it him she fears?

DENIAL.

She recalls the burden of those words

Have those wounds healed yet?
Does the anger still linger deep within?

HOW DOES SHE KNOW?
SHE WANTS TO KNOW.

DEMANDS TO KNOW!

Why?

the unfortunate question
that only she can answer

FEAR
of jeopardizing her integrity

to break down the walls
and expose the inner battle grounds
would leave her naked and forsaken

VULNERABILITY
is not something she conveniently accepts

to take off the mask
is far too intimidating
TOO DEFENSELESS

Or is it?

How will she know?
Will she be too late?
Does it even matter...







I wrote this about 3 years ago. I was recently told that I need to deal with the unresolved issues I have with the males that come through my life. This is essential for continued growth.

It took me about a week to post this. Something just wasn't right. I am brought back to that moment in time every time I read this. Looking back I now laugh...it was all in front of my eyes. All the answers I was seeking. There in front of me in black and white.

What is it that makes us so disheartened towards relationships? When seeking advice on relationships we are often told to 'leave the baggage at the door'. Easier said than done. How do we separate the all the pain and anxieties from our past experiences and learn to move on and trust again?